Trying to get my Usher on but I can't let it burn.

Hello.

It has been quite sometime since my last entry. Alot has been going on and happened since then. What had not had happened is we are not yet a billionaire.

Err. Random. I. Know.

Anywhoo, since the Hari Raya, I am nothing but happy. This year, I am super blesses with everything. The duit Raya is goooooood, the kuih Raya is marvelous *credits to my baby sister* and family is extended. Yes, now I am a proud member of DMHA (that's what HB5 calls it!) Ooooo, yes. Life IS good. Though I had to work like on the third day of Raya, but that was what I chose to do and never will complaint. To me personally, I find that helping people is something I was born to do. I feel extremely good knowing that my patients are getting better and returning to their norm. Enough about my work, lets talk about Raya!

On first Raya.

This year is actually the first Raya that we went to my dad's side first. Enjoyed Nenek's super delicious lontong and then went to Tokmak's. Tokmak made sambal ikan bilis which no words can describe how good it tasted (I even tapau-ed home!) and gave me duit Raya though she said she wasn't going to! Lucky me :) Later in the evening went to Maklong's and ate some more. That night, my mom's side came beraya our house. Mama cooked laksa and nasi mandi and i ate, ate, ate and ate. :)

The salam salam this year went well I must say. It felt so natural, the words came out gracefully *lol and I truly felt each word I said. It kinda felt like this year is going to my last. Maybe?

**This year is also the first year my grandfather is no longer with us. We and the Merus pegi kubur. I felt terrible and wished that he had not passed on. I know I didn't spent like a lot of time with him, but I had always admired him. For the man that he is, for the things he had done. Al-Fatihah.

On second raya.

Its a ritual for my mom's side to go pay a visit at my late Tok Ghulam's kubur. Though I personally never met him (he died before I was born) I always feel like I know him. Through the stories my mom told and to the picture I see, I know that he was once a good man. A strict, disciplined man.

Went to Lake Garden for some swan ride with little cousins. It was fun! But the not so fun part was when my BIL lost his BB. We thought of going to Penang but unfortunately I was oncall the next day, so we came home in the evening and got safely home before Maghrib.

Basically, that was my Hari Raya. By third day, I felt like Raya was over and ready to get back to my daily routines. FUN kan? :)

To everyone who knows me, I don't want to miss the opportunity to say Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir & Batin!

Hold on to your words because talk is cheap.

Tonight is the night, when Drummer boi is going back to his kampung halaman. And me, I'm working all hari raya. Best kan. Anywayyy, I am currently sedang mencuri tulang with my Physio aid listening to raya songs. This is the second year that during hari raya, I am stuck saving people. Its a nobel job (trying to sedapkan hati) and should not complain. It is my choice anyway. I chose to work. Duuring the festive seasons is when I can make (alot of) extra money. Okey, boss panggil pula, Selamat Hari Raya!

Things I like today :

1. Ma man! :)

2. The fact that I have less that 3 days 'till Syawal.

3. Yogurt swirl by Coffee Bean *Classic tart of-course!

4. "Do not resist pain, instead let go, accept & choose the thought that brings you peace. This is the path of magic." (I picked it up somewhere *lol)

5. Have I mentioned, Mohd Hazreq Mohd Husin?

*hugs&kisses*

Kepada saudara serta saudari. Setahun, hanya sekali merayakan hari yang mulia ini.

Dear *Princess.

First and foremost, I would like to wish you Selamat hari raya. I hope this raya will bring you joy, happiness and inner peace. The reason I kind of dedicating this entry to you (*Princess) is because of the pleasant surprise you left Drummer Boi in his inbox. It came as a shock to us, considering I never thought that someone actually read this blog. Thank you for reading anyway. Appreciate it. But what we are curious about is who you really are. I lied. We are also curious why you left no identity and a smiley face at the bottom of the email.

My question(s) to you, do you have a problem with what I wrote? Or you generally have a problem with me? And if you do, why didn't you just tell me straight? I do have my own email you know. Or better, just leave a comment here. Why didn't you think of that? You could have save yourself some trouble.

Who are you, *Princess?

The thing that both Dboi and I are trying to figure out is the motive behind your email. Sangat pelik. From the way you address him, to the attachments (yaaa, you do realize that you attached it 3 times, the same thing) and the smiley face. Happy smiley face or sarcastic smiley? Whatever it is, keep reading and I hope in the future you have enough guts to leave your comment here.

*Princess = Bukan nama sebenar.

***You know who you are, *Princess. Makonah pon Makonah la.

These three words, they could change our lives forever.

Makonah,

I'm not a big fan of yours. I think you are not mine either. But let me tell you something, whatever you did is so not cool. I really thought you were happy with your life, posting pictures of joy and laughter with your new other-half. I guess your were just trying to fool people,eh?

Whatever it is, I really want you to know that I'm not liking your action(s). Mailing someone that you already bitch about (in your blog) is so WTF. Why would you want to reminisce your past sedangkan you already kutuk that person kawkaw? You made it public that you were hurt by what happened but reality, you mailed and tried to go down memory lane with that person.

News flash, Makonah. That person is no longer yours and never will be again. That person has already moved on the minute you said that you were seeing someone else, and that person was really hurt by you too. So, never think that if you are fooling people with your so-called-happiness, that person is faking too. That person is genuinely happy now.

Makonah,

I really thought you are far mature than this. You know what really tics me off? The fact that you lied. You fooled everyone by letting them think that you are so over the past. Why can't you just let go. Be happy with the person you are with now, be happy with your life. Why can't you just do that? Lagipon, you are already doing half of the job, why can't you just let go and truly be happy? Two words for you, MOVE ON.

One thing I really don't understand is, how could you sleep at night. You must be a good actor. Mentally, I consider you are cheating your new other half mentally and emotionally. I pity your new other-half. You and your action(s) disgust me. Really.

Mailing in private, forwarding things that had happened 3 years ago (literally) is not what people call moved on. Are you unhappy with your new life? I thought this is what you wanted? I thought you were in a way glad that it happened? So why the hell are you doing this? You must have knock your head somewhere hard to actually forget what happened. Need me to remind you? Do you need my help to react all the previous scenes?

I know I am an outsider in this, but you have to understand where all these come from. If you happen to read this and terasa, go on. Go on and terasa because it is about you, Makonah Honggang.